I really don't know how I got so off track with my life, but I have felt chaotic, disorganized and just plainly overwhelmed these past few months. That is the reason why I haven't written anything. I just didn't have to say something constructive and I decided that I am not going to burden the blogosphere with whining =). Nothing major happened in our family or my life, just tiny little things that kept adding on every day and keeping me from my routines and schedule. And then I somehow got tired of life and kind of gave up trying to keep up with everything, just the basics - which means taking care of my dear husband and children. So, the blog was very low on my priority list.
But I must admit, so was the Word of God and that's something that shouldn't have happened. I mean I still read good stuff now and then, but my personal devotional life was reduced to the bare minimum and I am sure that this is a major part why I felt so overwhelmed and defeated. That's one priority that should have stayed on top the whole time and I repent of that. When we do not draw from the well of the Living water every day, then we have no strength, no wisdom, no vision. Without God's help and His grace we are struggling like a toddler who keeps saying: "Me do it!" So, I am very much aware that I need to start getting organizing my life by first making time spend with God a top priority and devote much more time to a regular prayer life. Expanding our family to 6 children over a year ago, moving into a new unfinished home, having more children in school, being able to keep it all together and serve everyone requires much more wisdom than I can ever have and so I desperately need God's help. And His peace! It is not easy for me to admit that I can't do it all and it took me 6 children to get there =). But I know that is where God wants me to be. To start totally dpending on Him and His strength and comfort. Only then can He glorify Himself through me and my service. So, I completely submit to His will and promise that I will not let be robbed of the privilege spending time in His Word and being in fellowship with Him - no matter how busy things get again.
And busy they will be =). The children have two more days of school (our oldest one more week) and then we have lots of activities and ministry that are waiting for us. It's easy to get overwhelmed, but I choose to rejoice and look forward to all of it and rest in God that He will help us to do it all and to do it well.
Before I finish this post, let me list a few things that I am thankful for:
~ our little Abigail is growing and finally not so skinny. Her only confirmed allergy at the moment is chocolate, so she can eat almost everything!
~ the children are finishing off another year of school with excellent grades and are praised by their teachers for their accomplishments, but even more for their behaviour
~ Benjamin is finishing his year of kindergarten and is enrolled in school the next year
~ God provided lots of used (and some new) clothing for us this spring, so the children are all clothed well
~ God also provided some more fabric and patterns, so I can sew what is still needed
~ We were pretty healthy the last two months and the children didn't miss any school
~ God protected the children when they had some minor accidents and they only came away with some scratches and bruises
~ we were finally able to get a curtain rod for our living room and I maganed to alter some heavy curtains, so now the sun is not shining into the living room and making it hot =)
~ I was able to plant some tomatoes in buckets and they are already having fruit, so that is a tiny start of a garden this year. I also have some potted herbs again and some salad in an old wooden tub (I'll show some pictures another day)
~ I just got a special present from a friend in the US - an increase in RAM for my computer, which was functioning way too slow to do anything in Photoshop. Now I can do some family album pages again (after a very long time)
~ I was able to can and freeze a load of cherries and make a nice amount of strawberry jam!
~ we celebrated our 17th anniversary in May and I must say that our marriage is getting better and better by the year! Praise God!
Here are a few pictures to finish of this quick update of the last two and half months:
Mimi and Tabi - super chefs (while mom and dad were sick with fever!)
Elizabet on a family outing
Sisters having fun
Benji-man making faces and enjoying life
Ready for church
Trying to fill her sister's shoes...
....and her brother's